Don’t ask me why.
One of my jammings right now…
Elijah Blake - X.O.X. ft. Common (by ElijahBlakeVEVO)
Who doesn’t love a good sample? I do! Especially when the sample song is so dope! I think it also has a double meaning. I mean, isn’t he in a way back stabbing if he is basically living a lie because he is in a relationship when he still loves someone else?
The original is the O’jays ~ Backstabbers. link below
*Du du dudu du du* “What they do?”
I have had more of those then I like even if I can count them one 1 hand…
Childish Gambino LES Official Music Video (by IbraAkePhotography)
Song is stuck in my head, heard it on Awkward Black Girl. I had heard of Childish Gambino but never checked him out until now. I’m late?
"Nobody else matters, Nobody else matters girl…"
I will never understand where men get off and in their feelings about women leaving them…WHEN THEY TREATED THEM LIKE CRAP!
I mean I have heard it, “I was going through things, I needed someone who would be there.” Uh Dude I was there, but the contract didn’t say put up with shoddy treatment.
Regardless of what you are going through it doesn’t give you a “Jerk Pass”. It doesn’t negate your actions towards someone who has nothing to do with it.
I mean I get it. I have been there, everybody has. I give people space, I back off. But nooooo, they don’t want that. They try to hold on to keep you in their pocket, so you won’t go to someone else. You can’t have it both ways sweetie pie. Don’t be surprised when the bad treatment continues and I leave.
And don’t try to turn it around like you were done wrong.
Luke James - The Only Exception (Paramore Cover) (by whoisLukeJames)
I am officially in love with Luke James! lol I love Paramore so this is just like some Royal Red’s in butter right now (lobster shimp, you know what just google). In other words so good. I am on all his stuff, but I love this! Love his voice…his face…and the personality I see in performances and interviews etc… Aw yiss
When I say I am awesome, it doesn’t mean I think I am perfect
It means I know I am a good woman, and it took you too long to see it
Do you think you are the first?
You won’t be the last
One, to come slinking up from the past
There was never a me
Made you feel like me
Down for you like me
But you just took too long to see
You took a lot of things
Have no idea how much you took from me
And now here we are
Calling and texting me, hungry for replies
Hungry for validation, to see if I still feel anything
Hungry for security so you don’t feel dumb in your feelings
All the things I starved for when you were with me.
We have a conundrum you see…
What to do with you
What do we do?
With your new sense of commitment
What to do with your imaginary time machine
With your memory eraser thinger-majigger
You must have those or maybe you just think you that…
Because those are the only things that could make me ever…
My love is not to be put on the shelf
There is no lay-away, or payment plan
You should have gotten that together when you were my man
You can’t expect me to just come back because you are ready
We don’t talk anymore for a reason
And when I cut you off it was because you were meant to be a season…
Portugal The Man - Purple Yellow Red and Blue (lyrics) (by DVFasone)
The weird, different in me has me feeling this song… I have to urge to dance like a flower child.
I got better as I got older, dealing with life and situations for “grown women”. I am still insecure and when that time come and it gets emotional it’s easy for me to sink back into all the things that is wrong with me. I still have trouble accepting compliments sometimes. At other times, my not thinking I am on a certain level made me make decisions that if I could, I would do different. I would never say I have no regrets because that would mean I learned nothing. I still can’t pick up on signs, and a few times dealing with guys I have been called a jerk (Next blog post lol OOooOO can’t wait) because I didn’t pick up on their little insecurities …or did I “Mwahahaha”. Kidding…or am I “Ha ha ha”. No seriously when I did I was more than likely too focused on my own quirks.
I use to say this all the time “I don’t have low self esteem, I just don’t think I’m pretty.” Or something like “I believe in myself, that’s why it’s not low self esteem, I just think I’m ugly, that’s all.” But feeling not good enough, looking for validation can affect how far you go. I felt I had all these gifts and talent but I wasn’t a beautiful person. How far can you go with an attitude like that?
My insecurity, started on the inside and the outside made it grow and bloom into something that could affect my whole life. It’s a process that as I go on my way closer to my 30’s I still haven’t mastered. But at least when I look in the mirror I don’t see a monster anymore. At least I don’t wanna disappear, and at least (9 times out of 10) I don’t care if someone comes up to me. Ten times out of ten, I can give two tears in a bucket about what others think about me. Cause…I’m not so bad
Taking a break from oversharing and opening myself up for whoever might run across me. Next post for that. For now, LOVING THIS!
"I just can’t believe you are who you say you are…Cause I know love when I see that Mutha F8cker…"
Cause love is a M’Fker. Some people say they are love, that what y’all are in, is love. That’s cause they don’t know Love. But I know em when I see em.